One of hardest things about being a Christian is that it’s so easy to fake. It’s not that hard to fake it cause there is not much commitment to be a generic guy or gal in church. You go to a Sunday service and put in your hour to hour and a half. If you do the midweek thing, thats another 90 minutes or so and then you have the entire week to be who you wanna be. So there you go, let’s average about 3 hours or so that you have to absolutely smile, take notes in church, side hug everyone you see, confess a few “not so bad” sins to look like you’re humble and fighting, and chit chat on your way back to the car. It doesn’t take long to figure out what to do to keep people from asking too many questions, and your pretty much free to do whatever you decide when no one in your Christian circle is looking. You could swear up a storm at work, you could mentally sex people left and right on the street. You could get involved in pornography and cheat and steal at everything that you do, sky is the limit because people have proven that there is an endless amount of creative ways to bathe yourself in sin on your express train to Hell. So the question remains, who are you really? Aside from projecting an acceptable avatar to your church folk, who’s slave are you? What do you decide when you think no one is looking.
Im not going to tell you what to do to not be a hypocrite when you leave church. I’m assuming you have been around long enough to know very well how to play church and how to be church. That’s why it’s so hard because at this point we have to decide every morning to be church and sometimes when it’s really tough we have to choose to be church in a step by step manner, like “ok, I’m getting on the bus now, who am I going to be… Ok, I’m at work now, who am I going to be…”
You just have to keep remembering that Jesus is Lord, that’s what you said. It was never meant to be easy, that’s what he said.